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These are my random thoughts and adventures. I post photos I take, drawings I complete, and everything from progress on my new years resolutions to the places I've been.
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Nov. 22nd, 2009 @ 02:01 pm Whoa. Impulse shopping to the extreme.
Current Mood: excited
I hemm and haww about buying something worth $15.
Will I use it?
Do I really need it?
Is that necessary?

YET... just now... I totally impulse-bought a computer for $400.

I mean... my good little dell has been very good to me, haven't you baby? Yeah. *pat pat* but it's just not keeping up with me.
Also, all of this shit is still registered under my former stepdad's name, so MEH.

The impulse part was conversation with my brother ending in me just buying it.

Then I'm like... kinda impulse-buying a house. Which is the most insane thing one can get. I mean, this grant opportunity came up and I just JUMPED on it.

Maybe a 30 years of being so frugal I'd save Halloween candy until after Christmas (at 8 years old) is catching up to me, and I'm going crazy.

Wanna see it? here it is!!
http://www.shopping.hp.com/webapp/shopping/product_detail.do?storeName=storefronts&landing=rts_desktop&category=rts_desktop&subcat1=&catLevel=1&mc=&product_code=NY542AA%23ABA&tab=overview&pageLink=true&bvLoadCart=1&omniData=

I'm going to donate my current computer to work. My AmeriCorps person is working on a PC so slow that if she opens 3 things at once it crashes.
I'm not exaggerating.
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Nov. 16th, 2009 @ 10:26 am Back on Track to Home Ownership!
Current Mood: hopeful
Okay, so the PDC isn't as bad as I thought. Somebody there is simply misinformed about this application process, and the real process is much more rational. :)

So, I'm still on track to applying this silent mortgage. I'm going on Wednesday with my Realtor to this lending fair, which theoretically has lenders who are friendly with the PDC and willing to meet their strict requirements. From there we get to hustle and have all of the paperwork completed by the 23rd (before I leave for Kansas) and then that's it. Wait and see.

December 3rd they draw 6 names
January 3rd - 6 more
February 3rd - and so on.

Ideally what would happen would I'd be drawn in December (which means I'd be much more likely to get the $8,000 home-buyer tax credit from Obama's stimulus thing) and then Possum and I would look at a little 2-bedroom we were both happy with.

Then I'd be a home owner! Ironically, if I lived with Possum my rent would go down like $200/mo, which would be great as I'd be covering my own water/sewage/trash/property taxes and all that... and then my taxes would get all complicated.

No more noisy neighbors (at least banging directly on my door) and I could paint my walls something other than renter-white. I could grow some food in a little garden, so cute!
Oh look! My neighbor just started up again! What timing.

And... if I don't get it, I'm just going to go on that spending spree and get myself a bunch of fun crap. :)
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Nov. 12th, 2009 @ 06:06 pm $55 Lotto Ticket
Current Mood: annoyed
So. Because the PDC is run by a bunch of unprepared incompetent people, now I have to make a decision by tomorrow.

I will spare you all the STUPIDITY that leads me to this point, but basically here's what I'm left with.

In order for me to even APPLY for this stupid grant, I have to attend a $55 class that lasts 8 hours on Saturday - a day that I WORK, meaning not only will I have to eat the 55 bones but also the day's pay just to APPLY to be in a lottery for the grant. I can go in the hole for sick time perhaps, but it isn't even sick season yet and I already used mine up for the year so far.

Now, had they told me this on MONDAY, when they were supposed to tell us everything, I could have worked Wednesday and flexed out Saturday, but no. These people are selfish, privileged idiots. So I get to eat it.

Then Wednesday they have some kind of lender fair where I can supposedly find lenders who will agree to the very strict restrictions that the PDC requires, not that I know what I'm supposed to bring to that, because they won't tell anybody.

I wouldn't even know about any of THIS except for the fact that I have a Realtor who is willing to do all this ridiculous legwork when it might not even lead her to a single penny to take care of her own family.

Meanwhile, all these ludicrous hoops you have to jump through will probably lower the number of people who will be in the lotto.

So. Do I pay the $55 for a lotto ticket? Do I take the last second time off? Or do I see this all as a sign of their idiocy and expect a lot more of it down the line... and say fuck it?

either way I'm going to call tomorrow and try to talk some sense into these people.
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Nov. 8th, 2009 @ 11:50 am Grant Process Opening
Current Mood: calm
I just got off the phone with my Realtor. Tomorrow the applications open for the lending program that'd allow me to actually buy a house. It is open from the 9th to the 30th of this month only, and all ducks must be in a proper little row for me to be entered into the lottery system.

I'm very okay with how it goes either way. I do not feel my hopes are particularly up, because in gambling they never should be. I am prepared more to hear no then yes, actually.

Ah well, Ingrid is capable, experienced, and looking out for me. It really is nice to know that. She also is connected to a couple of good lenders who she trusts. All I can do is fill out my part of the paperwork (which I'll be able to get tomorrow) and wait to see what happens!
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Oct. 22nd, 2009 @ 12:11 pm Sinus Infection.
Current Mood: sick
Now at home, nursing a sinus infection.

My boss and my boyfriend gave me many stern warnings to stay at home today... tho I'm rather tempted to sneak in this afternoon for a few hours and try to play catch-up.

I started my RX antibiotics yesterday, and have to take them for a week. Yesterday was HORRIBLE, but I couldn't miss work. Today isn't as bad, but I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep. I've been sick for 12 days now and I'm tired of it! I feel bored and restless, and all of the muscle I built up from biking and swimming has completely wasted away. So now I'm at square one. Sulk.

I'd do some more cleaning, but every time my head shifts altitude it kinda wants to explode. Cleaning involves a lot of picking things up, after all. Sigh.

I guess I'll just sit here and drink my orange juice.

Been trying to find tickets to Guatemala for less then $1,000! Holy crapoli! We waited too long to make a date commitment, and with 3 people it seems communication isn't our strong suit. So we'll see if I can do it. I was hoping for $700, but I know it's past that point. Now I'd be happy with $900.

I always have to marvel at the fact that I hemm and haww about spending $20 on a pair of freaking pants, but I'll drop $900 bones on some airfare.
I'm crazy.
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Oct. 17th, 2009 @ 11:15 am Sick again, putt-putt.
Current Mood: sick
I haven't been busy, I just haven't felt like updating much.

I've been sick since last Friday night. Yeah. About 4 hours after Possum got back into town after being gone 5 weeks, and I get sick FOUR HOURS after he returns. Wicked sore throat, followed by all of the usual. Now I'm taking an expectorant in hopes of encouraging phlem to move ON.

So... no dancing with the girls.
No banks-vernonia ride.
I did, however, go to the KMFDM show sick, because fuck it, I purchased tickets and I didn't want to miss the show. I paid for it something fierce later, but it was worth it. I had a really great time and wore a bandanna over my face to politely keep from spreading swine flu to other KMFDM fans.
I worked a bunch of half-days at work, and now it's the weekend again. It's pouring rain out right now, all the swimming muscles I worked hard on are more or less gone from a week and a half of sitting around on my duff, and I'm having the most irritating nonproductive cough ever.

However. It's pretty warm outside, and nice and humid which feels good on my lungs. Possum is going to go for a run in Forest Park, and I'm going to go with him.
I'll just walk along the same trail he runs on, probably bring my camera, and hope for some sun breaks between the rainstorms. SO pretty when that happens. If not, then I'll have a nice walk in the rain. I love it when it's warm and rainy out like this. I've been scowling at my inability to ride in it. BOO! driving ridiculously short distances! WAA!

I've got a couple that wants me to do a photo shoot of them. I haven't done a photo shoot with anybody in well over a year, so I'm pretty excited. And it's a couple, which I haven't really had a chance to do since Lonestar's wedding, which was kind of rushed due to lack of time. One of them is a total ham and one is pretty reserved, so that should be a fun dynamic to play with. When it's not dark as dusk and pouring rain.

You know. I love potlucks... but I hate the pressure of trying to figure out what to bring. Hmm.
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Oct. 8th, 2009 @ 07:45 pm Drawing, Possum back soon
Current Mood: giddy
Ah well, I've had a good week. I worked a lot at the start and so have shorter days today and tomorrow. I got a (rather painful) massage today to try and get through another layer of back/neck/shoulder/wrist crap, and feel pretty good from it.
Also, tomorrow I shall be buying KMFDM tickets, even if that goddamn box office isn't open. Sonsofbitches.

Possum comes back late tomorrow night, meaning the latest I'll see him is Saturday! It makes me feel incredibly happy to know he'll be back soon. Also, I'm going out dancing with the girlz on Saturday night, and Sunday Possum and I can go out to do the Banks-Vernonia ride that Lonestar and I did last year, which was just fabulous.

AND... I did some drawing this week as well, and I'm quite content with the result. Yay me.


Risen by ~Tanager on deviantART
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Oct. 5th, 2009 @ 11:05 pm Symphony
Current Mood: satisfied
Well, ain't I artsy?

A coworker offered up free tickets to the symphony tonight, and to the surprise of many I jumped all over that opportunity.
What, seeing Angelspit open for KMFDM makes me disinterested in orchestra? Puleeze. I enjoyed myself quite a bit, as did my cousin, who went with me.
I wasn't sure what to wear... so I went with a long flowing burgady bridesmaids dress I wore to Amy's wedding... and my long black trench-coat with my combat-style docs.
No, it was cool. Trust me.

Not that it mattered, because Portlanders don't give a crap about that stuff. I mean, I saw a dude in a Hawaiian shirt. More power to you, man.

There seems to be one thing all concerts have in common. They save the best for last. The show just got better and better. It really flared up my wanting to play an instrument again.

The problem is: I have many artistic projects that seem to lie around gathering dust while my muse is still on vacation. While I started drawing something last night (a combination of two drawings, actually, and I'm quite pleased with it so far) I still haven't done a thing with my sculpting in ages, nor my photo collage.
Then again, it'd help if I'd have some more cooperative models... *squint*
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Planet Blue
Oct. 4th, 2009 @ 12:42 pm Meh.
Current Mood: apathetic
Sheesh. With Possum being gone (it's been a month, now) my eating has really gone downhill again. Also, I seemed to have forgotten how to make food for just one person again!

I've also been pretty lazy. I wish I felt creative or something. Work is stressful and I crave a longer vacation. 5 days or whatever wasn't enough. I'd rather have stayed in Montana for a few more days, that's for certain.
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Oct. 1st, 2009 @ 05:56 pm Writer's Block: Agree to disagree
Current Mood: moody

Have you ever stopped being friends with someone over differences in political views? Are there any issues that are so important to you that you cannot be friends with someone who holds a contrary opinion?


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Yup. There are many many issues that would keep me from actually being friends with somebody.
It's funny because I generally like most people. But that doesn't mean I'll be FRIENDS with most people.

I will not be friends with those who are:

religious fanatics
homophobes/gay bashers
racists
hatemongers in general.
I feel like I have more categories than this...

I would be reluctant to befriend conservatives - it'd depend on how they displayed their ideals.

Does that make me mean? I don't give a shit if it does.
I don't have to be everybody's goddamn friend. I'm friends with people I have certain things in common with - and that includes core values. I have to respect my friends. If they regularly display ignorance and spew hateful commentary, then I am not going to respect them, period. I'm also not going to get in the same damn argument with somebody over and over and over again. That's boring.
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Sep. 22nd, 2009 @ 11:19 pm Flute
Current Mood: awake
Hmmm.
That's odd. I'm having the strangest and strongest desire to play the flute... something I doubt I can do at all. Seriously, I don't think I could do a single fingering... still.

I'm curious to see if it lingers. If so, I may have to ask mom to dig it up when I head to the coast for her birthday. Hmm!

I worked till 8:40 tonight. It really throws things off.
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Sep. 21st, 2009 @ 09:08 pm House, VegFest, RIP Phone
Current Mood: sore
Well, I talked to my Realtor and it seems I am right... without some government help I can't realistically buy a house in this area.
So, we're keeping tabs on the program. Evidently they'll give this silent mortgage to 54 homes and that's it, no mas. And it'll be done on a lottery system.

So if there's 540 applicants, I have a 10% chance of getting in... that... okay, that isn't that good.
if there's 216 applicants I have a 25% chance. Yeah, I like that better. Tho it's more likely to be 500+.

Come mid October they'll officially launch the program, and I'll throw my straws in with the lot and hope that I can get in. If I can, it's one hell of a deal. If not, well, at least I tried.

HA! I know! If I don't get this loan thing, I'm gonna go blow a couple hundred bucks on overpriced clothes from Title 9. YEAH. That way I'll have something stupid to look forward to. Or maybe I'll get a new computer. This one has turned a corner.

Possum is still gone, and knowing him as I do I know he'll be gone longer than 3 weeks. The boy's still in Kansas, and hasn't even started his road trip. Just in the vibe I get on the phone, he'll be there at least another week.
You know, we really need to plan this crap out so that we go on vacations at the *same time* even if it's two different places. Jeeze.
Still, it's weird to feel all single. I find myself fidgeting around not sure what to do with myself. ME. Never-bored. WTF.

I went to Vegfest with the Lee Sisters on Saturday, which was lots of fun despite the fact that I was at an EVENT. On my DAY OFF. on a SATURDAY. When I ... you know, do that for a living.
Anyway, we had this whole ridiculousness with my cell phone because when I went to update the SIM card (I've been having reception issues) the new technology rendered my adorable blinking phone inoperable.
Evidently the technology was too old.
TOO OLD??
Is a fine wine too old?
Are my favorite worn-in jeans too old?

I was NOT pleased. My old phone was yes, a hand-me-down. But the buttons were perfectly placed and it had these awesome blinking lights on the side that told me when I missed call or a message.
ALSO I had some pics I wanted off of that thing! And text messages!
Not only was there a super-cute picture of me on there, but I had texts from my birthday, the secrets of the Kennedy assassination, and the GPS coordinates for the lost city of Atlantis.

Sigh. My new phone is an LG. It's sleek, sexy, and almost completely black.
And it looks like a cold, dead lump of coal. Soulless. Sigh again.
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Sep. 15th, 2009 @ 08:03 pm Mortgage guy returns my freaking call
Current Mood: content
ALRIGHT! So I know me, and I know that I've got to finish this home-owner thing until I have an answer one way or another. So I had these mortgage people run a credit check and see what I qualified for.

I was told I have a credit score of 801.
WTF does that mean?
It's very good.
Oh, okay.

Of course, the fact that I make 23g a year kinda still holds me back, and in the end I qualify for like, 105g loan. I have to get all kinds of fees and insurances and the like, and it puts me at about $800/mo.

Which is too much.
AND it puts me in a crappy house likely in a crappy neighborhood. I said well let me see... I can pay $550/mo to live in a crappy neighborhood, or I can pay an additional $250/mo to live in a crappy neighborhood AND be responsible for
all repairs AND completely wipe out my savings.
I think not.

However, I'm a first-time home-buyer (maybe) and there are some programs out there that could put me in a better situation with a $50,000 silent loan... putting me at $700/mo (more reasonable) and $160,000 home.
Still a starter house in this city... but much more doable.

I'm looking into it, and so is the mortgage guy. I know this... for me to venture into the world of owning a home it must have several features:

1. a yard. It can be small, I just want one.
2. in a nice quiet neighborhood.
3. 2 bedrooms, they can be small, I just want 2. I may need to rent that shit out.
4. not be some money-pit full of asbestos, lead, and totally void of insulation.
5. not on the outer reaches of space. Gresham? Oh HELL NO.

$700/mo is my limit. I refuse to go higher.

SO if I can't meet my requirements, then I don't buy a house now. I continue to save any leftover money, and occasionally blow a chunk of it on a fun trip. I can live like that, it's fine by me!
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Sep. 13th, 2009 @ 10:40 am Restless.
Current Mood: indecisive
Current Music: NOISE NOISE NOISE!
Sunday, Sunday, Sunday.

Cleaning.

I'm thoroughly cleaning my apartment, and I can sense myself on the prowl for change. Getting rid of things or hanging shit up, something.
I've never felt as if I could ever really invest in a living space (tho this is the closest I've been) as everything has always felt temporary to me, perhaps because no living space has ever actually been mine. At home the bedroom set and even the artwork on the walls was not mine, and since moving out it's been one rental after another, which means I don't hang up anything of significance on the wall beyond a poster, because I want my entire deposit back. Since giving up my very beloved and awesome cat Misty, I've not felt secure enough in any living space to acquire a new cat (since my ex LOST Misty to a bunch of hippies!). I'm also aware that my lifestyle is relatively temporary - the ability to travel as freely as I do despite my limited income for example, is afforded by a lack of responsibility beyond watering my plants. (And one of them is NOT looking too well at that.)
Understanding this short span of time I can maintain this lifestyle makes me resist the urge to take on new responsibilities that would chain me down to a house or require me to find a pet-sitter any time I wanted to take a road trip a couple of states over.

Still, I am increasingly fed up with my apartment complex. The addition of some incredibly annoying new neighbors has slowly added oxygen to the coals of my annoyance, and has motivated me to begin looking for new apartments.

But NOW I'm at a really odd point in my life. Moving now is awkward and annoying, because on one hand I feel like my next move should either be into a house I am wanting to purchase, in with my current boyfriend, or to a new place as a single person who plans to stay there for a while. I do hate moving. HATE IT. Another move by myself would feel like an even *more* temporary space, and I fear it would put me in some kind of limbo. Course, evidently I'm in limbo now... I just don't have moving fees, application fees, and a backache from hauling furniture attached to it. Also, I live here for a reason - it's secure, the apartment itself is the perfect size for me, and it is literally one mile from work (and my chiropractor), 20 minute bike ride from the university if I choose to go back, and a 15 minute bike ride from most anyplace else downtown. The apartment itself is warm and cozy with giant windows allowing tons of natural light to flood every nook and cranny of my place. My electric bill is $20 a month and my place is always kept in the 70's, which is my favorite place to be.

The problem is the NOISE. Right now I hear a child throwing a temper tantrum, somebody flushing the toilet, and somebody's giant diesel-engined truck idling for no apparent reason outside my window in my parking lot. OH, and a door just unnecessarily slammed.
Last night I heard 3 couples - some of them were screaming at each other, and the other two I don't even know WHAT was going on, but it was all at the same time. Doors slamming, slamming slamming, nearing a dozen times. Ridiculous. FINALLY I got peace after the major construction across the street was finished, and now I have these assholes moving in and PDX closed some runway so now flight paths have changed to go directly over my apartment, so it sounds like a plan is going to land on the big white chevy idling in my parking lot.

Perhaps I'm getting tired of city life... I have no desire to leave Portland whatsoever (it's no mystery that I love this city!) but I guess it's just time to move a little further from the center. I'd just like to be able to open my window and hear birds beyond the crows fighting for scraps in the parking lot. I certainly want to get away from the traffic noise (that is thankfully shut out by my awesome windows) and a little further from the pavement desert that is my neighborhood. The artificial lighting sucks, too.

I guess only those who earn more money deserve quiet, peaceful living.
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Sep. 11th, 2009 @ 08:22 am 9/11 under Obama
Huh. year 8, and still going on about it. I wonder how long presidents will have these little memorials. But something this year was different.

EVERY YEAR I notice that coverage ignores the pentagon attack. Really, starting about a week after the original 9/11, they stopped covering it. They also stopped covering the plane going down in Pennsylvania - and I thought hmmm. Is this due to shame that we were hit at the heart of our military? Or just because the death toll was less impressive?

But this year - Obama was actually at the Pentagon, forcing coverage on it. I really don't think that Bush did the the past 7 years.

Meanwhile, I've been sleeping like, 10-11 hours a night all week. Since (literally!) half the staff at work is sick, I'm not resisting that urge. Maybe I'm fightin' something off.

Also, on Monday I swam 22 laps in 40 minutes. A new personal record!
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Sep. 6th, 2009 @ 12:59 pm Trip to Glacier National Park
Current Mood: satisfied
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Well, we're back from our trip a tad early - but that's alright. That just means I get to rest up for a day or two before going back to work. I FORGOT MY TRAVEL JOURNAL... which sucks. Must remember that for domestic trips as well...



Pictures! http://picasaweb.google.com/Tanagers/GlacierNationalPark#

So, our first stop was Coeur d'Alenes, which is in Idaho. We stayed at a pleasantly deserted campground with a big beautiful lake and moody osprey. We even got to see one harass a bald eagle out of its territory. Shweet. We wound down after a long day of driving (and a longer morning trying to cram all of our crap into my very small Hyundai Accent) with a long meandering stroll around the lake, watching the sun go down and eying the approaching storm coming across the mountains. We then proceeded to have THE windiest fire I'd ever experienced, a massive spider (hobo, I think) came out of one of Possum's bags (meaning he brought the damn thing from home, and we wonder if that's what's been biting the shit out of him lately) and slept pretty well despite the muggy weather.

The next day we arrived at Holland Lake in Montana. It was gorgeous. The lake went to 155 feet deep, but we could walk out a good 100 feet with only getting wet at the hips. The water was as warm as a swimming pool, with frogs lining the shore and a waterfall in the distance. Also, nasty biting bugs, but who'll remember that? Oh, I guess I will, I just wrote it down.
The next day we stayed put, enjoying a beautiful 3.5 mile hike up to the falls, spying turtles in the water, tiny fish, and fat begging ground squirrels. When we got back Possum rented a canoe, which he and I took all around the lake while my brother napped.
That night I spent some time playing with my shutter speeds, and we spent a good hour playing with the fire, and I went and took some sky shots at night. Possum went to bed early, and my brother and I meandered down to the shore of the lake to watch a big lightning storm roll in over the mountains, and elk bugling eerily across the water. Seriously - it's like a cross between a donkey braying and a sea lion barking. We thought something was being killed at first. We battened down the hatches and lay in our tents as the storm went directly over us. We could hear the lightning crackling and the thunder was intense. The elk obviously wasn't successful with the ladies either, as he continued calling all through the night and into the morning. It was freaking awesome.

The next morning we went on to Glacier, and decided to go to the East Syde and take the scenic route through the park. It was stunning, tho my brother was unfortunately on the wrong side of the car (remember it was jam-packed) to see a lot of the sweeping canyon scenery, but he was able to see the waterfalls and we got out a few times. Within an hour we saw our first black bear - a little guy scrambling up the hill, across the road, and frantically getting stuck trying to get up the cliff to the side. We snapped a few shots through the excitement, and then let him be as he looked pretty scared and cars were coming up behind us. There was quite a bit of traffic on the narrow road, and construction made it worse. When we got to our site we realized how fortunate we were to have anything at all, as the place was booked up even in the middle of the week. Still, even crammed into a pretty developed and overly expensive site like sardines, we made our camp and it didn't take long to realize we were surrounded by the beauty of the rockies and many lakes. That night we went outside of the park to gather firewood and sit by one of the lakes. There wasn't anyplace to really sit, but Possum enjoyed a short dunk while we examined the tracks of bear, moose, deer, and large birds in the cracked mud. We think we saw a golden eagle as well, but not being bird people we aren't sure.

HOLY CRAP I just looked them up - and that's EXACTLY what we saw!! SWEET.
Anyway, we ate dinner on the roadside. While I was preparing it (on my tiny new campstove) the boys gathered drift-wood for burning by the lake. Across a barbed-wire fence.

That evening Possum and I took a walk to one of the small lakes very close to the campsite, and enjoyed a breathtaking scene with the sun setting to our west and the full moon rising in the east at the same time... all in perfect reflections. Of course I forgot my camera... but it's an image I hope to never forget.

The next day we did the 10-mile round-trip hike up to Iceberg lake, hearing many stories of moose, mountain goat, and grizzly bear from the relatively numerous hikers on the trail. Sections of other hikes were closed off due to bears sticking to the human trails. We kept our eyes peeled for any sign of anything exciting, but alas saw nothing on the hike bigger than the ground squirrels accustomed to begging snacks off bad tourists. The scenery, however, left little to be desired. The rockies are SO beautiful, lining sweeping valleys full of pines, waterfalls in the distance, alpine meadows, interesting insects, and stunning skies. When we arrived at Iceberg lake we found it to be almost emerald green, nestled between flattened mountains and glaciers sitting at the waters edge. We chatted with the older Kansas couple that we kept leap-frogging, and enjoyed the rather decadent lunch I had put together for all of us. Can't complain about that at all.
About 2/3 of the way back, the wind storm started. We became discouraged by our lack of wildlife, and came back to camp without having seen a thing. The wind was annoying, we lounged around camp trying to relax, and unable to build a fire. I finally just got into the car and started to rummage around for lost items, and Possum and my brother went to the parking lot in the back where people liked to sit with telescopes.
Possum came running through the camp calling for me - because they'd spotted bear on the hills!

I ran back with him and sure enough - waaaay out in the distance was a mama grizzly bear with three playful cubs. Rangers let us look through their telescope at them. They were so beautiful, the cubs frolicking around with the mom watching carefully as the sun set on the mountains. She was huge and almost golden out there. Possum and I ran back up the trail for a ways to get closer, and I got some decent pictures considering how far away they were. It was really very magical. Back at camp, we even got to see some mountain goat very far away up on one of the mountains.
The wind storm didn't let up, however, so there were no beautiful reflections for us that evening. The next morning we got up very early (still windy) because we had originally planned to take a 3-hour hike that day. However, Nick had worn steel-toed boots on the hike (oops) and his foot was hurting him, and I was sick with cramps. We realized we had to tone down what we wanted to do. We went to McDonald Lake in West Glacier. There Possum went for a run while my brother and I explored the pretty stones littering the lake, rooted around for insects to look at, and enjoyed looking out at the water, the mountains, and the sky. From there we left for Spokane, where Possum had to fly out the next morning.

After dropping Possum off at the airport, Nick and I explored Spokane a bit. We realized early on that there was no camping in Eastern Washington, and with a little internet access learned that the camping in NE Oregon was much further away then we had thought. We knew there was no camping to be had along the way as we got closer to Seattle or Portland as it was labor day weekend, and it seemed counter-productive to go back into Montana or even Idaho. We decided to enjoy Spokane a bit, and just head home. We went to the waterfront park where they were gearing up for this huge festival, so we tried to escape that with a bunch of the small bridges over the surprisingly impressive river/waterfalls running through the city. Then we went home. Note to myself: Awesome bridges are NOT in Spokane, but in Kennewick. Coulda saved ourselves an hour of driving had we realized that. Oops!

The car-ride also gave my brother and b/f a chance to get to know each other. I think it's been positive, they seemed to warm up to each other quite a bit. My favorite highlights:
BR: So, is the Wizard of Oz like a big deal in Kansas?
BF: [Seriously] Hell yes it is. On our first day of school we all dress up as the characters.
BR: [nods]hmm!
BF: ...and we don't have a mayor. We have a wizard! Transportation is easy - we don't need buses or cars, we just wear red shoes and click our heels everywhere we go! [insert other things I forgot]
BR: [10 seconds or so of silence] ... what else?
BF: We don't have Mexican laborers - we have munchkins!

They gathered pirated firewood together and navigated together. It was cute.

... and now it's windy and rainy outside. So I'm hibernating and playing online. I slept for 11 hours last night, and feel pretty damn good. :)
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Planet Blue
Sep. 5th, 2009 @ 09:39 pm Random Star Trek meme
Current Mood: amused
I agree with these results!

Your results:
You are Deanna Troi
Deanna Troi
85%
James T. Kirk (Captain)
60%
Spock
59%
Jean-Luc Picard
55%
An Expendable Character (Redshirt)
55%
Uhura
50%
Beverly Crusher
50%
Will Riker
50%
Leonard McCoy (Bones)
45%
Mr. Sulu
45%
Chekov
40%
Geordi LaForge
40%
Mr. Scott
30%
Worf
30%
Data
29%
You are a caring and loving individual.
You understand people's emotions and
you are able to comfort and counsel them.


Click here to take the Star Trek Personality Quiz

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Planet Blue
Aug. 29th, 2009 @ 09:58 pm Birthday, off to Glacier
Current Mood: tired
Well, my birthday went well. Possum took me out to see BUGS! at the Omnimax theater (quite fun) and then we biked down to Pioneer Square for Italian-fest, where we had yummy Italian food and watched the opera.

It was a really great day. Even my new AmeriCorps intern got me a plant for my birthday! How sweet is that? I got tons of text messages, emails, notes, cards, and phone calls that it really gave me that sense that I have a lot of great people in my life. It made me feel very peaceful and fortunate, and turning 30 wasn't some horrible thing like I thought it would be.

I mean really people. I kinda spazzed out at 20.

Possum and I are doing great. Part-way into our trip he goes back home to Kansas, and will actually be gone for like, 3 weeks. It'll be the longest we've been apart, and I anticipate it sucking. BUT the guy has busted his balls, often with 2 jobs, for the past 2 years so I'm glad he's taking a good long vacation and having some adventures. Mesa Verde and the Grand Canyon tho? Color me green!

Today we went to a wedding, and I've spent the entire rest of the bloody day packing and preparing for this trip. what sucks is, I don't feel all that prepared. I hate that! I don't even know any good hikes in Glacier, and we leave at 8:30 tomorrow.

I'm really really sick of packing, however. really. REALLY. I've been at it for like 4.5 hours - gathering stuff up, going to the store, cleaning so my place doesn't smell like funk after 9 days, watering my plants, reminding people of shit to bring, etc. etc. It's freaking exhausting!

Realistically, however, I'm not going to get up at 7am to do more of it... so it's best I just get back to it. *yawn* at least I'm most of the way done.
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Aug. 26th, 2009 @ 09:17 pm Plan Plan PLAAAN.
Current Mood: relaxed
So, I'm past the half-way point of one of the most exhausting weeks ever. I'm training my new AmeriCorps person, and while she's fine and dandy I am just DRAINED from the loads and loads of information I need her to take on. Also, ATM, I am essentially doing 3 jobs. Awesome.

I've been taking care of myself however... I got acupuncture Monday(A HUGE help!), a massage on Tuesday, and I hope to sneak into the chiro for some more wrist treatment tomorrow or Friday.

THEN come Sunday it's off to Glacier Park with Possum and my brother.

I turn 30 tomorrow, which is seeming much less dramatic then I thought it would...

I haven't been to the gym in over a week and a half because my body has been acting all weak on me. I'm not sure what else to do about it? I'm quickly losing what I've gained, and it's acting like I'm overdoing it. I'm not DOING ANYTHING. Maybe it's depressed about turning 30? I've also been incredibly sleepy, regardless of how much sleep I get. Dunno what's up with that, either. I'm sleeping pretty soundly. Sigh.

Tomorrow for my bday Possum and I are going to go see BUGS! at the Omnimax, which is gonna be pretty sweet. I'll also be doing a little last-minute camp prep. Shwing.
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Planet Blue
Aug. 10th, 2009 @ 10:26 am Writer's Block: Memo to Myself
Current Mood: content

If you could travel back in time, what advice would you give to your younger self?


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Hmmm. I've been mulling this over, and I realize I have next to nothing to say. I don't have any real regrets anymore, and the things I've learned I couldn't have learned in any other way then I did. I'm pretty pleased with how my life has turned out, and with the person I've become. I can't think of anything beyond some words of comfort, perhaps... tho in times of despair words of comfort often fall on deaf ears anyway.

I got to talking about homeownership again, which means that I now have a goal for my future beyond where I want to go with work.
I want to own a home, how American of me. I want a yard.
I'm going to ask Silver for her mortgage brokers contact information, and I'll make an appointment to see what I can be approved for in regards to a loan and whatever financial assistance I can get with my income. I can't really know anything beyond that.

Meanwhile, buying a home is something I'm keeping Possum in mind for... meaning I would get a 2-bedroom place if I could afford one. My expectation would be that even if I didn't live with him, I would eventually live with somebody, and I want that to be part of my future as well. Possum and I likely won't live together until we can find common ground on the having kids issue.

Turning 30, cripes. All this settling into life shit is very intimidating. You're always told through HS that what you do today determines the rest of your life... which is almost complete bullshit. But at this age, it's the big lifelong decisions that start to occur... buying a house, finding a life partner, to have children or not. That last window is only open for so long... so even choosing not to have children in the next few years becomes a bigger and bigger decision.

It's enough to give anybody anxiety. Damn. Now I'm losing my feeling of contentedness!
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